i can't remember any moment in the whole my existence when my inner life, what i actually feel, was disconnected with real events and circumstances so much. a physical me lives and acts like a robot, i don't even remember what i've done an hour ago, i'm not interested in it. and the real me is somewhere else been thinking about something else and living another, imaginary life, full of events and emotions. that sucks a lot tbh.
there's a very big chance that i would be evicted it a couple of days, and if not, i don't have money to pay my rent, and i don't have money to move, i don't have a place to go, no job, no friends, that's a 100% fucked up situation. but i cant force myself to think about it. i don't feel anything about it. i feel a lot. about different things. i cant' speak about them, there's no words in human languages to describe what i feel. maybe i went nuts lol.
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